I've been hesitant to jump back into the pharmaceutical abyss, which means I haven't gone back to the super special specialist and have still not come anywhere close to agreeing to that hospital stay.
I've had some guilt over it, as if I'm not doing enough to make myself better, and some anxiety, because while I have personal issues with doctors and hospitals, I want so badly to be free again, I can't just let it go.
So when this article popped up in my reader, it made me feel a little better. For the link phobic, the article is entitled, "Behavioral Techniques a Better Value for Chronic Migraine Than Meds: Study", with a succinct subheading of, "Over time, relaxation training, hypnosis, biofeedback more cost-effective than drugs".
It's pretty much where I want to go with my treatment right now, and I was hoping that the super special specialist would be more open to trying alternative treatments, or would, at least, know of them and have recommendations as to how and where to get things done. But there is none of that. It's hospital or you fail, pills or you're not trying.
Biofeedback, acupuncture, massage, hypnotherapy, that weird magnet therapy, craniosacral therapy, or really, any kind of pt, does NOT appear to be covered by medicare for chronic migraines.
So, it's pretty great that medical journals are publishing articles that make me feel better about my treatment priorities... but I'm still screwed.