So, everyone is pulling for me to do this hospital stay. I understand why, and part of me is totally gung ho. But there's this other part of me that won't be silenced and that part of me is having fits of panicky fear every time I try to logic it all out.
I'm trying to think of ways to make it less scary. Researching the facility I'd be staying in, finding out the specifics, might help. Will I have my own room? What kind of food will they serve? Will I be conscious? If I'm unconscious, how does the staff then treat me? Do they continue to run tests and administer treatment or do we wait for my consent? Can I go outside? Can my boyfriend stay with me? What's the policy on electronic devices?
But I have a history with hospitals. And really, no matter how many questions they answer, that history is telling me that only bad things will happen.
However, in the past week, I've had two children of facebook friends go into surgery, one requiring about a week-long stay in the hospital. So, that feels a little like the universe telling me to bootstrap up.
If the doctor ends up recommending it, which, it really looks like he will, I'll probably go for it. I'm terrified, but I can't just stand still and hope my head fixes itself.