Friday, July 29, 2016

Wonky Socks: Better Than No Socks

Summer is kicking my ass as usual.

I've regained my exercise regimen, though I'm nowhere near as fit as I was this time last year, but I just checked myfitnesspal and 20 workouts in the last 30 days is pretty good, so I'm feeling positive about it. However this morning, I started the uphill trekking part of my routine and it was BAD. Straight away I had mild nausea, disorientation, irritability, and total exhaustion. I knew what the problem was, the heat. No matter that it was only 8am, the sun was shining and I was overheating, fast. So, I came inside and finished up in front of the fan. I still feel sick but it's going to happen eventually today anyway - summer guarantees me an existence of barf by 4, every day, without fail - but at least I got a workout in.

My mental health is a little improved, but I'm still struggling. When I realized this morning that my workout was sending me to migraine hell my brain automatically went, "ugh you suck, you can't even jog for 5 minutes without feeling like shit and now the rest of the day is ruined." Like, I'm already feeling bad, wtf brain?? But I've been trying this new thing I saw going around on tumblr, where if I catch myself doing negative self-talk I turn it into trump's voice and then whatever it is sounds absurd and obnoxious and I can rightly tell that voice to fuck off, like I would Donald, if I ever had the pleasure. I sincerely recommend this ridiculous-sounding tactic, it has literally helped me turn depressive cycles of self-despising into giggling fits.

My uterus is dealing well with the mirena and pills combo. After the procedure and insertion I bled very lightly for about two months, with sometimes severe cramps. The bleeding stopped for two weeks, and now has started again, with milder but still some prominent cramping. I have yet to get my follow up scan; money, my health, and the hassle that is the radiology dept have impeded me, but it's a priority. I mean, you can't screw around with cancer.

My IC is holding steady with dietary restrictions, which are still pretty liberal. In daily meals I avoid acids, sugars, and soy, but not all the time. I eat soy every day some days, but I am also very conscious of my body's reaction and adjust my diet accordingly if I feel even the tiniest twinge. Ginger ale has been the only thing that really pushes it for me; when I'm feeling pukey, I love a cold Canada Dry, but if I don't push plenty of water with the soda, my urethra can become angry. And I really don't like it when it's angry.

I've been trying some new things. Pokemon GO is barely usable in my rural area, but it's still a good time. I downloaded a coloring app, and it's so relaxing, and gives me a little feeling of accomplishment after completing a design. I've been crocheting some slipper-socks and the first one came out... ok, but then I lost the pattern I found online (srsly can't find it anywhere in my browser history, i'm convinced it's been lost to the berenstein 'verse) so I'm trying to wing it from memory and the second sock is coming out... ok-ish? I'm sure they'll be usable, but they certainly won't be pretty!

And that's all. :) I hope you all are doing well. <3


Migrainista said...

I love the Trump voice! I will have to try that :) Brilliant!!