Forward Movements

I've always been resistant to change. It scares me. But things have got to change for me. I'm not happy. I feel useless and uninteresting. My life is aimless and painful. And it's suffocating me.

So, I'm still moving forward, very slowly, on the schooling front. I'll have an appointment with the disabilities folks in the next week or so. It still may not pan out for several reasons, and I still don't have any kind of a plan in mind for my education, just that I want to get one. I'm hoping the appointment will, at least, give me some clarity.

And I am applying for a from-home volunteer job in a field I've never worked in before. There's no pay, but it'd be a fantastic learning experience, so I'm really hoping that the company can see past my limitations and understand that I really want to do this job for them.

It's exciting to have prospects, and terrifying. I've been out of work for over three years, and out of school for over ten, it's not hard to imagine myself flailing and failing.

So, I'm just going to imagine myself kicking ass, instead.