Friday, November 16, 2012


School has been intense, hence the sparse updates, but I'm keeping up. I'm not getting the 100% I always strive for in either of my classes, but I still have a good chance of getting an A in both.

The poetry class is a lot of fun, and a lot of work. I really like breaking down the poems and discussing them, analyzing them for every little iota of meaning, but it can also be tedious, and emotionally draining, in a way. I'm exhausted after every essay I write, it takes all the energy I have to make my brain function like it used to so easily.

Luckily, the photo class has been energizing, if anything. I get to stretch my creativity without too much pressure, since it's a rather slow-paced class, and the feedback I've gotten from my teacher and classmates has been encouraging. I've turned out some images that surprised me, and I'm starting to take myself more seriously as a photographer. I don't know if I could make it into a living, but it's something I feel good about exploring and I think this will always be at least a hobby. I've got my store up (looking for a unique holiday gift? One-stop shopping!), and I've also got a facebook page, but I haven't sold much, and I have no idea how to market myself. Uploading to the facebook page and sharing when I post new images is anxiety-riddled enough.

I finished my xmas shopping online this morning! I'm just doing real presents for immediate family, and everyone else will get a homemade gift. I feel really on top of the holidays so far, though thanksgiving is weighing on me a bit.

The drive to the city -where my parents live and will be hosting turkey day festivities- is always hard on me, and then it's likely that stinky relatives will be coming. When I heard that, I really wanted to back out, I have no desire to put myself through the pain of perfume. But, I don't see my family much since we moved, and I miss them, so very, very much. Maybe I'll just dress warmly and hang out in the backyard? That's depressing, but I'd probably survive better.

Head wise, I've been ok. I've been struggling, in pain, and nauseated about as much as is usual, but I've still been productive and kicking ass, so I don't have much to complain about.

I've even gotten some crafting done lately. I sewed a hat from crocheted scraps; it looks a little odd, but it's cozy warm. I also took the hood off a knit zippered sweater and re-purposed it into pockets! I'm a little obsessed with having pockets.

I cut my hair off again, and it's so liberating. I'm hoping I can afford another cut before xmas, because it would be fun to shock my family with even shorter hair. But, my neck is kind of cold, so maybe this is short enough for now.