School Stress

Look at how things can change in a week.

1/8: this shakespeare class is so intimidating. reading just the intro to the text was impossible for me yesterday, so now i'm questioning everything. i've got a week before the first assignment is due, and a few weeks to drop the course if i'm doing that poorly. even if it doesn't work out, it'll work out, i have options. but i used to be able to push through anything. i could think my way through the most confusing info, sometimes it took lengthy rumination but things always made sense in the end. not so much now. i have to work 10 times harder to do a tenth of what i used to manage and it is infuriating.

1/11: well my brain continues to refuse to think well enough for this class to be anything but miserable, so i'm trying to drop it. well, dropping it isn't the problem, it's that I don't have a backup class lined up. so I've got add requests in and emails out to profs and all my fingers and toes crossed. If anyone lets me in, this will be my THIRD attempt at a class this quarter. The first one was cancelled for lack of enrollment, so that one's not on me at least.

1/14: I got into a media class! I'm already caught up and so happy! This class will be much less stress and I'm looking forward to embracing my future with the visual arts. I'm switching my humanities major from a literature focus to film. My brain has let me know its limitations, so I'm respecting them and adapting.


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